For many years of my self discovery, I have never been happy with the situation I faced,the kind of partners I work,the discussion I had with my group mates and moreover with the way lessons are taught in the class. Wherever I go I saw a problem and I created many problems and misunderstandings. I never knew my ego was that high, I only thought I am better and I could prove better than others but I now realize every move I made was the real cause of my dissatisfaction. I thought I am only one who runs under mental depression but there are many who is running through the same situation. I was unhappy and blame teachers when they sit in the corner and go on with presentation for two hours but I was wrong. I blamed my friends when they pressure me with lots of group assignment but I was wrong and it goes on...
With the prayers of my beloved parents,teachers and friends I have discovered a new path to lead happy life. My parents though a simple peasant yet very concerned about their children. Their advices has shaped the path am following. Teachers guided and lesson me with great knowledge to perfection and friends support me with their good wishes. And above all I toil hard and use their wishes,knowledge and advices fruitfully.
I have read over twenty novels and few philosophical books but none of them have impacted me to change but today I celebrated reading year with the book The 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People By Stephen R Convey and it does impact me a lot to change the way I think, I react and live. Though I did not cover up the first habit yet I found every line of this book has great meaning to change life. This novel has made my life peaceful,brighter and hopeful. The reason goes like this..
In the first para, I said that for many years I have been never happy with situation I faced with friends,group mates and teachers but after reading this book I realized that its all to deal with my way of response. As observed by Eleanor Roosevelt,"No one can hurt you without your consent", I have been unhappy because I chose the wrong way.
Many of my friends says what has happen with my hair style, last year my hair stands like the needle of opuntia and I got name Opuntia vulagries (cactus) from my friends but these year I am maintaining simple hair style because I utilized the space between stimulus and response nicely. One day my brother who is a teacher told me, Is it because your education has increased and your hair stand? At that time my response was very fast I just said its time but that evening I realized that he was right to comment on me. I then chose a different paradigm of hair style,simple and nice to look at.
Till today I blame teacher of mine who sit in corner ant start a lesson which seems to be boring but few hours back I realize my response was wrong because I became pessimistic to take the things. What I have learned was teacher is doing her best and am lacking interest to learn it. Because I was reactive I am affected by physical environment and am much driven by feelings,circumstances and environment. I have never been proactive I fail to take imitative to learn myself and I lack those values posses by proactive people.
But now I see all around me full of values and knowledge,the good response from my friends and teachers just because I have found a new way to change.....
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